Regarding Relations

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The past several years have been of lonely nature. In the year commonly referred to as "twenty-twelve," I moved from Florida to California, I started a new, and quite frankly, less attractive (in not only it's image, but also in that of the academic and administrative character) school, and I became a mild misanthrope. This was partly due to my own will, but largely due to my personality's vivid antithesis compared to  my surrounding community. As a result of this sudden sense of disapproval, and my own censure of my peers, I cut myself off from all relations. With the exception of previous friendships, obviously.

These friendships included 4, now 3 people. All of them across the country and only able to communicate by way of text message due to the unfortunate time difference that interfered with my social life completely. I had more friends than that, of course, but those few were (and are) the ones who I kept in touch with on a regular basis.

It was not until half-way through the year of two-thouand-thirteen that I opened myself up once again to the idea of friendship. Mostly by my mother's doing. I was perfectly happy wallowing in my pit of apathy and ambivalence. However, my mother thought it unhealthy. That heinous obedience took hold of my heart, and I made the brave and noble decision to go out.

It's amazing how quickly you can lose your social game once you sit out for a round. I was really quite awkward when trying to reach out. I guarantee that it was very uncomfortable for an onlooker, and I can only imagine the pain I have put certain acquaintances through in the past 7 months, 6 days, 3 hours, and approximately 18 minutes.

Oh, forgive me, my amateurish attempts at friendship began much earlier than that. 9 months, 1 day, 12 hours, and 20 minutes ago.

While this time in the desert was certainly an unpleasant period, it has come to pay off.

Although I do not believe that I have come to be anyone's favorite (which is quite understandable), I now have caring, interesting, and  musical friendships, established far outside of my school's walls. Yes, that does, indeed, imply that I am primarily a social outcast at my place of education. I have one friend, though. She's exceptionally lovely and engages in British Television, such as Sherlock, as do I.

Though, my previous actions would suggest I am of introverted nature, in actuality, I'm just the opposite. My personality begs for human interaction and thrives when it feeds on the love emitted by astonishingly alluring people. Friend-dates (to use Katherine's phrase) and gatherings are my heart's desire, and I cannot even begin to describe the immense amount of jubilance I feel when someone engages in conversation with me willingly.

To return to my overall objective, these fairly new relations have created a happier me. I have been removed from the sea of ignorance's dream, they have shattered self-dependance and shown me the truth of community:

It's quite magnificent.

We weren't created to live alone. Be a friend, show love, invite people out, do fun things, drink tea, watch Star Wars, and eat sushi. Truly, I tell you, if acquaintances can make an unmistakable change for the better in my life, they can be of monumental importance to all people-- including you.

Hebrews 10:24-25

xoxo, Ali